Hello world,
Today is a sunny day, the snow is totally gone, and something inside me has broken too.
At work, everybody keep asking me if I have already a boyfriend, and ofcourse I have to say 'no' everytime. And then the questions come : "why not ?", "Don't you want one ?" etc
Ofcourse I want to feel love again, ofcourse I want to feel the butterflies again, but love is so much more than just having butterflies in your belly.
I'm already three years single now, after a relationship of almost three years. It was my first and only relationship. But I never, ever want to get hurt so much again. Everybody around me saw what was happening, they even warned me, but I did not want to believe them. And it hurted so much when I finally saw the truth. And from that day, I closed my heart. But maybe one day I find that person who's worth opening my heart for again. We will see what the future brings.
For the rest it was a day like every other day. I went to work, came home, had dinner (on my own), watched television and went to sleep. Tomorrow it's already the last day of this year. A year in which happened a lot. Some of those things are memories, safe inside my heart, and others are things I have erased.
Anyway, I lost myself in time. I have to hurry to my work,
Auf wiederhören
xoxo
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