Hello dear world.

It was a heavy evening and sometimes I wish I was somebody else. 'Cause I seem to do everything wrong and I make people unhappy. Especially at home. I have a little brother who is 15 years younger than me, and I love playing with him, he has no judgements and he still sees the world as something beautiful to explore. But my mother doesn't like me hanging out with him. I don't understand why 'cause I'm his sister after all! But my mother punishes him whenever he plays with me. It breaks my heart because somehow she makes me feel like I'm not part of this family, like I'm a stranger. I know that my mother wants me to leave the house as soon as possible. She keeps on telling me every day. My little brother came to me today with something he found in the garden and he said : " This is for you. So you won't forget me when you have to live somewhere else from mom'."
I nearly cried.

I look forward to go to work again, because at least they appreciate me there. Oh yes, I went to that meeting, and it was not that bad after all. It was a little bit strange to me because I don't know that much about food etc. So I learned a lot. And a lot of things surprised me. Now I realise that I'm only a part of the chain of people who make sure that the patients get their food. It's kind of fascinating.

anyways,
I think I will go to bed now,

xoxo
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