Dear world,
PLEASE stop challenging me.
Give me room to breathe
I'm suffocating
Don't mess with my feelings.
Just let me be...
PLEASE ???

I wish I could run away and hide myself from all the pain, all this mess. I know it's my own fault to let him get closer again, but I can't say 'no' to him. It's like a game; whenever we come closer, I push him away, even though I don't want to. It's so wrong to feel this way, I should erase him from my mind. He has a family to take care of now. I don't have to be a part of his life anymore, in fact I SHOULDN'T. I know how much it has hurt me to know that he cheated on me. I shouldn't let him cheat again. I shouldn't get closer to him. I can't do this to his wife and child. I can't, I shouldn't, I shouldn't, I shouldn't !!!
He makes me insane.

                                 

anyways, I keep myself happy with the fact that I will see YOU again.
I miss you so much,

xoxo
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